我不是真正的快乐.

I removed the song from the previous post. It's a little too loud. FYI, it's Zzzzz (Singing Myself to Sleep) by The Cab. Nice song, but it just doesn't fit the mood right now.

Pfft. Now I'm feeling soooooooooooooooooooo.. indescribably.. lost, I guess.

I know this feeling. Every now and then I'll feel like this. And everytime I feel like this, I'll find someone to talk to. But not this time.

A two, three years ago, I might be talking to Theresa, Jis or James. A year ago, I might be talking to Jerrold, Phoebe or Chen Xi. A few months ago, I might even be talking to Jiayi. But I think with my current position, talking to them about such things will feel very weird. I seriously lack the guts to do it, lol.

At this stage I should be talking to Keith or some guy in GB. I am never able to spill my heart to Keith. He's too simple-minded(not that being simple-minded is a bad thing) and blissed to understand how I feel right now. I doubt he would say anything sensible, lol. As for GB, I thought for awhile, and decided to message Willie. But he didn't reply. So, yeah. Nvm.

I think I can get over it.
I think I can wake up and forget everything.
I think I can study hard and forget everything.
I think I can keep bowling and forget everything.
I THINK I can.